Superficial People

Shallow people ...
I can't believe how superficial people can be. I've been discriminated against all my life because of my weight so that's nothing new to me. For the first time in years, I'm starting to feel good about myself. I'm noticing the changes in my body and words can't describe how great it feels.

I go to the gym 5 to 6 times a week, I literally live there. The manager was recruiting people for a videoclip they're making to promote the gym and they needed about 10 to 15 people. The idea was to film a step class from one of the instructors. I love step and I'm quite good at it (and no, I'm not showing off). I saw the gym owner approaching people for the video. They all had one thing in common: good looking girls & guys in their mid-twenties/early thirties with gorgeous bodies and guys with 6 packs and all.

I was never approached and I frustrated me. A friend of mine was chosen and she's the lucky one with the nice body but never ever did aerobics in her life. She's never had issues with her weight and goes to the gym 3 times a month maximum. She admitted to me that she probably ruined the whole thing because she's never done step in her life! She had the hardest time following the choreography and was out of breath before the warm-up was over.

The thing that frustrates me the most is not that I wasn't chosen. What irritates me the most is that the people that were chosen are not representative of the people who go to the gym that is old & young, fit & fat, black or white, etc. I feared the gym for many years because of that because I thought I wouldn't fit in.

It made me feel like I wasn't good enough again and it sucks. I'm getting over it but it's so frustrating! Can't wait to see how that video will turn up ...

Alright, enough!

Later